How Life can just change in an instant... or does it?

Hello Friends,

This is not an easy to write, but important that you all know my heart and a personal update on my current situation. Some of you got this in an email and others... I didn't have your email to write you personally.

For some this is a shock and for others you knew this was coming. I have filed for Divorce from Garth. This was not an easy decision nor was it one taken lightly. I do not believe in Divorce and it saddens me that I have to do it.

After 6 months of marriage I knew this was an uphill battle, however I was determined to go with the blessing God had given me. To work it out, whatever it took. I was willing to do it. Now after 6 years of marriage I realized that God also does not want me to live in an unhealthy and unsafe relationship.

For the past 5 1/2 years we have been in counseling and trying to work it out. Last year Garth quit "working on it" and our relationship has become extremely unhealthy and unsafe for Elijah and me.. I am not angry, resentful or bitter. Matter of fact I would do it again because I have learned a lot about God, relationships and been given a wonderful blessing of a son! However, I need to move on and I have been given the release from God.

I am staying in Arizona with Elijah. I sold my house and moved into an apartment close by.

Garth has been living in El Paso Texas since end of February. He joined the Army and seems to like it so far. Please pray for him. That God could get a hold of his heart. To soft it, heal it and to turn him back to the Father. That he would not give up or feel the victim. Kind of interesting that the name "Elijah" means to turn the hearts of the fathers back to the sons and the sons back to their fathers. I never wanted this situation for my son, but I know he is in the Fathers hands. That God can fill in the Gap for Garth's and my lack.

Please pray for Elijah and I when you think of it.

I am clinging close to God at this time and He is my MAN! I am so thankful for my faith. I could not do it without it. I don't know how marriages without faith do it??

Thank you to all who have helped me over the years. You truly were Jesus with skin on. Bless you.

Loved & Blessed

Tanja